Seeing as I only have a few days before I'm back in classes, I figured I'd take some time for myself and write.
Something I've really started to take notice about myself lately is that I am an extremely sensitive person. Both physically and emotionally. My body is extremely sensitive to temperature changes in the sense that my circulation actually becomes effected, I'm a person who can feel a storm coming because the pressure in my sinuses change, and I'm also someone who gets a sick feeling and I get extremely uneasy when I'm around high EMFs, such as power lines.
Emotionally I'm extremely sensitive as well. Negative people, situations and comments really get to me, even if they have nothing to do with me. Normally I just try and keep myself out of negative issues, but lately that doesn't seem possible. With the news being pounded with stories about Kaleigh Wilson and now Aubrey it's hard not to feel sick. Social situations seem to be just as bad. Everyone wants to talk about this person, or argue about that issue. Granted I have been guilty myself in participating in the useless gossip, but anymore people are taking it way too far. I can't even open up my facebook without seeing someone post something negative or judgemental or something controversial. I get that facebook is a forum for opinions on everything, but the fact that you can do it behind a computer screen and not actually have the conversation allows people a false sense of security that they can say whatever to whomever and have no repercussions for it. I am not a person who sits on my facebook and drives my religious and political opinions into everyone on my friends list because not everyone wants to hear it, nor is it the proper way to discuss issues. In my opinion not everyone is open minded enough to discuss anything on a website such as facebook. People feel they are either right or they are right, so there's no point discussing anything that involves an educated opinion.
Overall I'm just trying to express how all this negativity is effecting me poorly. Lately I have been feeling exhausted, my stomach is constantly upset and my focus is fuzzy; and I know this is because the past couple weeks I've become more aware of how much we hurt one another. It seems like the only thing anyone cares about is themselves. No one stops to think about how they might help a situation, but rather they focus on criticizing everyone else and pointing out faults of others. I know this is something that is never going to change, sadly, but I know that I do need to change the way it effects me. I cannot let my health and my optimism be effected by everyone else's poor attitudes. Therefore I have decided to start finding one positive thing for every negative comment I hear, focusing more on those little joys in life, and making sure that I really am aware of the words that I speak with other people. Gossip and judgemental comments really do a lot of harm, so my goal is not be a part of the hurt, rather someone who stands up for the weak and outcasts.
I will always be a sensitive person, but now I know that I can switch that to something positive and ultimately help those who might have the same reactions to insensitivity as I do.
